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so everyone has probably heard about Chrysler by now. (here, if you haven't.)

this will affect us.

if J can find a job doing something similar to what he does now, it probably won't be at as much pay. If he can't find a job doing like he does now, he'll definitely not be getting paid as much.

so my idea of wanting to be a stay at home mom is probably going to be going right out the window. it's something that I was really looking forward to. something that I never realized I wanted to do, until the opportunity presented its self to me.

so here I am now, eight & 1/2 months pregnant trying to figure out if I should start applying for jobs now, or wait until after the alien gets here, and then start looking for a job.


J's not stressing over it right now. Yes he's looking into other options, and we've discussed (and will continue to discuss) what might have to happen in the future. But we only found out about this today. And like J said, he'll more than likely have a job until they inventory and send the parts back to Chrysler. So a little longer than June 9th.

I had to get this out of my head. i haven't been sleeping well at night, and I know this will keep me up thinking. like how i shouldn't have quit my job even if it was more stressful than i could handle. or how i should have started looking for one as soon as i quit.

i need to stop blaming myself for decisions that we made.